Greetings,
My name is  Tomahawk. I am the Maine Chapter of Sons of God MC Chaplain. I am available to do all types of ministry work, from Bike Blessings to Biker Weddings. I am a licensed minister within the state of Maine, but will travel all over as my schedule permits. I can either be contacted through my email account or via cell phone. If I don't pick up, just leave a message and I'll get back to you as soon as I can. God bless,

Testimonial:

I guess my testimony begins in 1989.  I was 19, had been active duty Coast Guard for 2 years when I was clinically diagnosed as chemically dependent. I then attended an 8 week inpatient rehabilitation program in Miramar CA, where I was first introduced to the “concept” of God, prayer and meditation. I practiced prayer a little bit while I was there in the program, but as soon as I “graduated” I put it behind me and ultimately ended up drinking again.  At some point in my life I began to consider myself an Agnostic.  I didn’t know if there was a God, nor did I care to know. Life was life and I was just living it. When I was dead, I would be dead and that would be the end of it. Until my death, I would just be a victim of circumstance.

In October of 2005 I found myself in a furrow of alcoholic desperation.  I had become a daily drinker and was in jeopardy of loosing my family, my job and in the long run I would have lost my life.  I was drinking in pursuit of the abyss, it was the only way I could find to escape the self-inflicted pain of my life.  This is a very dangerous place to dwell as any alcoholic or addict can attest to. Alcohol had truly become the “rapacious creditor” and I would pay, no matter the cost. I wanted to stop drinking, but I could not do it on my own.  I distinctly remember telling my wife that I was going to quit drinking and I ended up intoxicated that very night.  The next day I was at that point of total desperation, I didn’t know how to live life without drinking.  I was emotionally and spiritually bankrupt. Somehow and for some reason, I managed to drag my self to an AA meeting.  All I could do in the beginning was to immerse myself in the AA program.  I got a sponsor, started working the steps and went to a lot of meetings.  Again I was introduced to this “concept” of a higher power.  I had to view it as a higher power, because the thought of a “God” was just unbearable to me. But I was so desperate to stay sober, I adopted prayer as a part of my everyday life.  It felt weird at first and I wasn’t even sure who I was praying to, but I kept at it.

In about 4 months or so, I had my first spiritual experience. It was a “calming” sensation while I was in prayer.  I didn’t quite understand it, but was immediately able to see the fruits of having a relationship with this “higher power”.  So, in some way I had “come” to believe in God, but I still wasn’t sure who He was.  Here is an interesting point that I only see now looking back: I didn’t necessarily believe in God, I didn’t have to. All I had to do was to be “willing” to believe. As AA teaches us, willingness is the key to spiritual freedom and is the beginning and foundation of this new way of life. Through my alcoholic trials and through the venue of desperation, I had become “willing”.  I also had to admit complete and utter defeat. A couple of months went by and I was doing really well. All aspects of my life were on the mend, my relationships, my job and even my family.  But then my life got turned upside down. I have said this to people and I still find it to be true. Every “breakthrough” that I have ever experienced in my life came on the crest of a “breakdown”. (Think about that.. We never really walk alone)

In my heart there was this voice that kept saying “Jesus”.  I would push this voice way down inside and kept denying it.  I had no interest in Christianity.  I felt that religion as a whole was corrupt and just another way for people to bilk the working man out of his hard earned money.  I felt like the religious man was a sucker and a weakling that was so badly in need of something, he was willing to believe in Santa Clause or the Tooth Fairy for his answers. I also felt there was way too much controversy surrounding Christianity, because they couldn’t even agree on anything themselves. You have Catholics, Protestants and on and on and on, all of which were fighting and finger pointing.  Who was right? I didn’t know and I didn’t want to find out.  The hypocrisy didn’t interest me in the least. I had grown up around “those Christians” that would party all week, and then put on their Sunday best to go to church. There were also “those Christians” that would sit in church in judgment of all those around them.  I thought all Christians were sanctimonious, self-righteous hypocrites. But, none-the-less this voice was there and it just wouldn’t go away. The more I resisted it, the worse I began to feel.  I fought it with everything I had and as a result my new found spirituality began to fail. I was getting to the point of just walking away and would have ultimately ended up drinking. Something had to give.  It was in May of 06, I was at the end of my spiritual rope, just hanging on by a thread. I’d had enough and had reached another spiritual bottom. There was only one thing that could free me from the bondage of self.  That was our Lord Jesus Christ.

I was alone in my room on the ship. I just began praying from my heart and not from my head. It was much like the sinner’s prayer. The major point was, I accepted the Lord Jesus Christ as my savior and asked Him to come into my life.  I immediately felt this overwhelming energy in me and I felt the Lord’s presence with me.  I was calm, scared and amazed all at the same time.  The world would tell me that it was something I ate, or that I was overtired. But I know the truth in my heart. I had accepted the will of the Lord. He had called me and only now was I finally ready and willing to answer. The next day I got in touch with Jericho, a long time friend of mine and someone that I knew to be Christian.  I explained to him what had happened to me; he was beside himself. I think his reply was “Is this Tony?” He knew me all too well, and he also knew that I was a devout knucklehead. I can remember telling Jericho things like “You’ve got 30 seconds to give me the meaning of life… Go…” Just to “mess” with him and his beliefs. But he also knew there was One mightier than all knuckleheads and as a matter of fact He loved even me, the Chief Knucklehead. He explained to me, and showed me in the Bible what had happened to me.  I was in fact baptized with the Holy Spirit.  In August 06, I was baptized with water as a symbol of my repentance and accepting a life of Christ. 

Prior to my baptism, I was introduced to Eskimo and Hooper from the Maine chapter of Sons of God MC Ministry.  Jericho knew I was actively looking for a “club” and wanted me to meet these guys.  I had met the Vice President, Fisher at Jericho Leather in Waterville a while before that. I think I told him “I just strait up don’t want anything to do with you Jesus people. If that works for you, it’s cool. But, I don’t want to hear it.” I remember he was real cool about it, even though I was being a tool. Boy was I in for a surprise!

After our meeting with Eskimo and Hooper I was just really taken with these guys. Eskimo is this very loud and intense “biker”, but you can tell he has the Lord in his heart. Hooper and I just hit if off right from the beginning.  He is a former fisherman and has lived a life at sea. He is also a recovering alcoholic and addict.  He knew where I was coming from as an alcoholic and he understood my trials of having grown up on the ocean having been in the CG for the last 20 years. I remember doing a lot of soul searching and praying about what to do, because I was also looking at a couple of the secular clubs.  I decided to “check” out the Sons and began going to their Bible study in Belfast. There was one “event” that blew my mind that I will share with you.  I remember one of the “hang around’s” was getting upped to prospect.  The whole group gathered around him, laid hands on him and prayed. I could just feel the Holy Spirit in the room.  It was awesome and I had never seen anything like that in my life.  Soon after that I became an “official” hang around and could not wait to begin prospecting. I just remember being so taken with the “fellowship” they had with one another and the closeness of the group. I was also very taken with the fact that they are so well respected by the secular clubs.

Around that time I also began attending other Bible studies and I developed a “thirst” for the Word of God. The Lord put it in my heart that I should take the study of His Word more in depth, so I began a quest for a seminary school.  I began attending an on-line seminary school 1 January 07.  I don’t know where the Lord will lead me from here, but I will forever be a disciple of the Lord Jesus Christ.  Through His grace and mercy I was pulled from the clutches of alcoholism and the madness of this world. He lead me to the Sons, I think to show me that there are many different “venues” for His ministry.

I have since begun doing a Bible study at my work as well as sharing responsibility for giving Sunday services.  We have a very diverse group of Christians from a lot of different denominations and backgrounds, ranging from Pentecostal to Southern Baptist. Our focus is on the grace of forgiveness and the Word of God.  I feel that Christ called me, much as He called the Apostle Paul. Through my experience in life and through Christ, I may bring others to know His grace and love. I had but to slow my mind and listen to that voice in my heart. Christ has been with me all the while through the trials of my life. He was in essence preparing me for the next step in my life which is in His service.

May the Lord bless you and keep you always,

Tomahawk, Sons of God MC

Favorite Scripture: 1Tim 1:12-16

And I thank Christ Jesus our Lord who has enabled me, because He counted me faithful, putting me into the ministry,  although I was formerly a blasphemer, a persecutor, and an insolent man; but I obtained mercy because I did it ignorantly in unbelief.  And the grace of our Lord was exceedingly abundant, with faith and love which are in Christ Jesus.  This is a faithful saying and worthy of all acceptance, that Christ Jesus came into the world to save sinners, of whom I am chief.  However, for this reason I obtained mercy, that in me first Jesus Christ might show all longsuffering, as a pattern to those who are going to believe on Him for everlasting life.

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